I didn’t realize that I needed to give myself permission to change. It should have been obvious that change comes from the inside and slowly emerges into view for all of life as well including others on their journey. I used to hope for acceptance of others and blend in. I also thought that studying, praying, hoping for positive change in my habits and perceptions would make my change possible.
However, I had overlooked the simple fact that changing on the outside, seeking acceptance from the outside required external conformity. Wow, this was a shock since there were many things which I did not wish to accept or believe. I have many secrets hidden in my journey some of which I consciously perceive and certainly there are others not quite in view. So conformity does not free me by silencing my thoughts.
So, let’s start again. Here is my journey’s mantra
From this day I give myself permission to change. Permission to notice small beams of light beckoning me to rethink my views.
Permission to no longer criticize my changing
Permission to view my previous memory of behavior and thoughts as completed history with no hooks piercing my present moment
These views include the perceptible world and that of the invisible realm as well.
I choose to engage my powers in a loving and caring manner so that I do not become my own prosecutor.
I wish to proceed on this journey with small, careful steps.
I wish the evolving effect of my change to be one towards a blessing for myself and others.
I believe that deep within each human being is kindness and caring, regardless of the outside circumstances. This viewpoint includes the essence of me as well.
‘I am’, ‘they are', and the concept of ‘we’ do not exist. We are separate eyes of a large amorphous being called humanity. Using ‘I’ is only my limited perspective; Using ‘they are’ creates conformity and uniformity that does not allow individual expression; “We” is a trap of inclusivity, leaving out some body, some thing, some thought for sure.
Following the path of light and self awareness, I realize that explanations of my changes and new behavior may not be resolvable. After all, it is my journey towards awareness; how could I assume that my journey would be clearly viewed or understood?
I realize that there is an exponential aspect to internal change:
Large, easy pieces of crumbling ego and narrow minded views falling by the wayside at first.
Then followed by subtle viewpoints and patterned behaviors stepping aside.
Then, challenges along the journey to continue when seemingly trivial thoughts and behaviors come into light that impede the way.
And continuously wrestling with the tug and pull of future and past moving one from the present moment.
Forever, the fine tuning of the strings of our instrument from use
Upon these seemingly contradictory thoughts
I realize that it is necessary to journey alone, with others as companions only
To perceive and not just see
To comprehend the distinction of dead and living
To realize that our physical senses have proscribed a prison of turbulent and contradictory views
To seek the innermost awareness from which we came
To live in the ‘I am’ awareness and not the ‘I was’ or ‘I will be’
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Is there anything or impeding your journey? Or is just your own permission?
Why would anyone wish to journey to an unknown destination?
Are you listening to a whisper that encourages you forward?
Are you learning the subtle lessons our soul teaches?
However, I had overlooked the simple fact that changing on the outside, seeking acceptance from the outside required external conformity. Wow, this was a shock since there were many things which I did not wish to accept or believe. I have many secrets hidden in my journey some of which I consciously perceive and certainly there are others not quite in view. So conformity does not free me by silencing my thoughts.
So, let’s start again. Here is my journey’s mantra
From this day I give myself permission to change. Permission to notice small beams of light beckoning me to rethink my views.
Permission to no longer criticize my changing
Permission to view my previous memory of behavior and thoughts as completed history with no hooks piercing my present moment
These views include the perceptible world and that of the invisible realm as well.
I choose to engage my powers in a loving and caring manner so that I do not become my own prosecutor.
I wish to proceed on this journey with small, careful steps.
I wish the evolving effect of my change to be one towards a blessing for myself and others.
I believe that deep within each human being is kindness and caring, regardless of the outside circumstances. This viewpoint includes the essence of me as well.
‘I am’, ‘they are', and the concept of ‘we’ do not exist. We are separate eyes of a large amorphous being called humanity. Using ‘I’ is only my limited perspective; Using ‘they are’ creates conformity and uniformity that does not allow individual expression; “We” is a trap of inclusivity, leaving out some body, some thing, some thought for sure.
Following the path of light and self awareness, I realize that explanations of my changes and new behavior may not be resolvable. After all, it is my journey towards awareness; how could I assume that my journey would be clearly viewed or understood?
I realize that there is an exponential aspect to internal change:
Large, easy pieces of crumbling ego and narrow minded views falling by the wayside at first.
Then followed by subtle viewpoints and patterned behaviors stepping aside.
Then, challenges along the journey to continue when seemingly trivial thoughts and behaviors come into light that impede the way.
And continuously wrestling with the tug and pull of future and past moving one from the present moment.
Forever, the fine tuning of the strings of our instrument from use
Upon these seemingly contradictory thoughts
I realize that it is necessary to journey alone, with others as companions only
To perceive and not just see
To comprehend the distinction of dead and living
To realize that our physical senses have proscribed a prison of turbulent and contradictory views
To seek the innermost awareness from which we came
To live in the ‘I am’ awareness and not the ‘I was’ or ‘I will be’
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Is there anything or impeding your journey? Or is just your own permission?
Why would anyone wish to journey to an unknown destination?
Are you listening to a whisper that encourages you forward?
Are you learning the subtle lessons our soul teaches?